Panchita is being super lovie and its really weird. When its just me and her we hangout and it's all good, but she's super lovie today. Maybe she thinks I need it. Dogs are funny that way. I've really had a hard month even if I haven't shared that with anyone.

My day of nothing has been pretty okay. I probably went to bed some time around one o'clock but ended up getting up at 6 to go to the bathroom and feed and water the cats before I forgot. I saw someone's ass run between the chair and the bed so at least they're still alive.

After I fed the cats I went back to bed until about noon. I wasn't going to get out of bed but I knew that if I didn't get up I'd never get to sleep tonight. This week I'm not going to be eating out as much as I have been. I've pretty much spent my entire paycheck on rent, paying bills, and other nonsense. It doesn't help that I'm an emotional shopper so if I feel bad I spend money. Needless to say out of my $750 paycheck I've got about $140 left - that's about $10 a day until we get paid again so there'll be no fast food this week.

I think here in a little bit I'm going to hit the grocery store and get some basics so I can brown bag it to work this week.

Actually, I know I have enough food here in the house to last all week I just am feeling blue and want to spend money. Some time this week I have to get more cat food and litter but if I go to the store today I'll probably be totally broke tomorrow.

Tonight I've got to find something in the freezer to eat. I'm almost thinking of tamales and eggs. I have a few dozen left and they're good... but I really shouldn't. I know your heart is in your chest but damn my left breast hurts. I started this morning when I got up at 6. It's just in the fleshy fat part, not my actual chest, so I'm sure it's nothing.

OMG am I seriously the only person who uses the word "fat" as an adjective with no negative meaning? I describe Torrid as the "fat Hot Topic," and my trainer Elda freaks out - I said something like, "she's a fattie but still super cute," and she almost passes out. Why is fat such an awful thing? Wait... don't answer that.

I can't believe that August is almost over. There is all of this week and then that is it, at least I have next Monday off for the holiday. I don't really have any plans for the holiday but its not really a party holiday. I think its a BBQ kind of holiday, but not as big as the 4th of July or anything.

*sigh* There is this week and weekend (including the holiday), two weekends of derby, and then Disneyland. There is one payday before the trip and then I get paid the day we leave. I can't believe the trip is already almost here - it feels like it was six months away just yesterday.

Mary I'll text message you some time this week, but for now it's dinner and going to bed.